wait what

you dont gotta cum on my boobs just as bad as you wanna fuck i wanna fuck toooo.

this song was played a lot this weekend.

living in my hometown for the summer was a terrible idea. i did quit drinking as much tho.

my fun level is at negative over 9000.

but i move too ann arbor soon woooooooooo.

tonight i am taking care of my dad because he had surgery.

A lot of shitting and fucking went into these cookies.

Today I made my first comic.

well maybe not first ever, but first of what i plan on doing from now on. Instead of just a boring journal im going to practice my creative non fiction and drawing by using my journal to write and draw and sometimes both at the same time. Just sloppy stuff for my self. Its still something. Something I have wanted to do for a while. Why'd it take so long? thanks to my wrt 360 class for inspiring me.Oh and Fart Party.

stuff i want

just writing this all down so i dont forget:

harajuku G perfume...big one

cherry blossom body wash from bath and body werks

babseball ts

old school saddle shoes.

now accepting applications

being single is great.

but i have to admit that sometimes when im in my bathtub watching american splendor, or sitting in my bed reading wolverine comics, or spending a whole sunday in bed watching cartoons i think to myself it would be nice to have someone next to me enjoying the same things.

but i want something thats innocent and real.

not just some relationship based on looks and sex.

maybe even a real date here n there instead of "lets get drinks".

i dunno tho real dates give me anxiety.

for now im happy just doing what i do.

i will continue to cuddle my pillow.

Ralph Fucking Maccio

lets see. im pretty sure no one really reads this. i even forgot about it. im just gong to let my brain take this one over. a lot of rambling and ranting. lets see lets see. man man in my ears . future on my mind. been having a hard time sleeping lately. been broke, only cuz im getting my own place soon. when i do sleep i have fucked up dreams. i have never had sex dreams really. usually masturbating dreams but not sex, but latley its been fuck city in my dreams its disturbing. usually its my guy friends who i dont like that way, and when i wake up i just feel like a total weirdo. one time it was the youngest son from weeds and i had to explain to his mom that i didnt mean to. lol. i guess at 25 you become a cougar. so yeah really fucked up dreams besides that. but i dunno. like i said i have never had sex dreams really. they kind of weird me out. I also have dreams about mass murders, usually very gory. thoes dont bug me as much. Lets see lets see. i feel like in the last year i have changed alot, i feel like a lot of it was me going backwards and giving up a lot of responsibility. just not giving a fuck. had a couple relationships and realized i just can do relationships. so i have been single for a bit and trying to focus on myself. then i realized how fucked up i was becoming lol. too much drinking and too much not giving a fuck ended me up in a place i dont wanna be, but i noticed it, and im workin on it. tryin to keep my hands busy and not drink. its hard to do though. i like to see people. people are at the bar. the bar is for drinking. so usually i take a week and dont go. i watch seasons of tv shows instead. all 5 seasons of weeds in 2 weeks not too fuckin bad. but after that time i end up at the bar all over again. but, like i said im still just trying to break these patterns. im also actaully feeling good. happy. content i guess. i always have a list of things to do but somehow never seem to do them. i sleep alot because i dont like to get out of bed. i like to sleep. and i have nothing i HAVE to do. so i sleep.

face of the earth

im alive.
+in school
+film and video major
+photo major
+writing minor
+joe
+kitty
+apartment
+getting hw done
-no work at dir lately
-the occasional binge drinking
-the guilt after a binge drink
-chubs mc-gee city but then again its easy to feel fat when you used to be 110-120 pounds at most.

If your reading this

i miss you.